Why can’t I decide what I want to do?

My father has always told us boys that as soon as you graduate, you better have plans for your future.

He believed boys needed to be independent and take care of themselves.

Girls needed their Daddy until they had a husband. I was about ready to graduate, but I didn’t know what I wanted to do. I could go to college, since that was acceptable to my dad. He said he would pay if we wanted to continue our education. We still needed to have a life plan and know what it was we wanted to do when we graduated from college. My eldest brother was going to school to be a teacher. My second brother wanted to be a veterinarian. I didn’t know what I wanted to do. I thought it could be fun to go to college, but that would just push my decision making forward. It would give me four more years to decide, but would I know what to do? My dad came home from work one night, and I noticed he was in a good mood. It’s funny how that was the first time I noticed that my dad always came home in a good mood. He would bring gifts to mom and little things for us. I didn’t even know what he did. I asked, and he said he was an HVAC technician. We talked about his job in HVAC for almost two hours. He seemed thrilled with being an HVAC technician. I asked if he enjoyed working for his boss. He looked at me oddly and said he was the boss. He owned the HVAC company for the last five years. I asked him if he had room for another HVAC technician.



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